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Locusts I&II

by Spirit Waves

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1.
there's something that's a part of me that never was supposed to be i always said that i would keep it to myself but in the rear view, there's something strange i see what's that? oh thought i was alone standing in the tide with my feet in the foam and as the night goes on i feel something lurking a dark secret pain that won't stop hurting so who are you then and what have you done to my long lost friend i just wish it could be all over again there's something distant here i can call it out if you lend an ear yes i can shout it out if you need it clear oh i can so who are you again i wish i could take away your biggest sin oh how i miss my only friend oh how i miss my only oh how i miss my only friend where are we now are we good cuz i've got to jet are we fine cuz i've got better things that i know my love you haven't seen yet
2.
True North 03:03
can't talk here true negation we will coexist underground walls are closing awful nosy tell my dreams that they are broken we are tied up so tight and we can't speak we are tied up 'n tied so tight we can't speak out about it now everybody sidles up the repressed silent groove we are tied up and tied so tight we can't speak out about it now everybody gets sized up facin the silency groove can't talk here the spirit speak negation perhaps we may coexist underground walls are closing awful nosy tell my dreams it's they who broken oh we are tied up so tight now we can't speak we are tied up and tied so tight we can't speak out about it now everybody sidles up the repressed silent groove we are tied up n tied so tight we can't speak out about it now everybody gets sized up facing the silency groove we are tied up n tied so tight we can't speak out about it now everybody gets sized up facing the silency groove we are tied up n tied so tight we can't speak out about it now everybody gets sized up facing the silency groove can't talk here true negation we will coexist underground walls are closing awful nosy tell my dreams that they are broken
3.
in the center out the hole i always want full control i'm the sinner out a soul flogged again full control
4.
turning the wheel lighting the match playing card spoke eyeliner catch run into puddles run into swirl take off what you got me she sure can twirl i sure can twirl
5.
take me back to where everything resembled a close a peak in the life a start of an upset chandelier reflections empty bottles of wine a pretend life that's no longer mine do you believe that you've made it i don't think we have yet take me back to when i kept myself in strict repose holding my feelings close my enemies closer awful reflections after bottles of wine i jettisoned the life that was no longer mine do you believe that you've made it no i don't think that we have yet do you believe that you've made it yet boy i don't think i've done it yet
6.
In Stride 01:59
despite the fact that we've all big plans we all croak just the same that corpse over there used to sing and dance big lights in the shape of the letters in his name and he had somewhere he had to get home to and there were people who loved him and the people he was close to but his final thoughts remain an unsolveable mystery to me we had a hard year and i took it in stride but now i'm back and ready to ride we had a hard year but i took it in stride so now, i'm, back and i'm ready to ride
7.
where you goin now the lights are all out the breeze in the trees something new will sprout oh where you goin out got me filled up with doubt a freeze in my knees don't make it so drawn out don't make it so drawn out a standing mirror or in a cracked shard then whatever makes you happy where and when and if why won't get you i've got a missive to give and if you won't love me i'll quit lickety-split lickety-split where you goin out
8.
there are nights where i dream of you eyes full of fire as you stand before me am i lovely or am i frightning am i calm or am i angry there are nights where i forget about the monster in my sleep and there are nights where she stands up tall walk past and stare into the crystal ball what do you see what do you see when you look at me i used to think my spirit was so much fire but now as i get older and feel my soul is itching to retire i can't sleep, can't stand these palm trees sunglasses on, radio loud, all i hear is the sound of waves crashing over seas there's an intruder standing before me
9.
she's makin me put on my pants again and go out to check the mail without her guiding love i'm sure that i would fail and i still break down every now and then when i think about things i did every word that was so laced with venom every told-you-so that i did bid but that's the oat of life great mystery and all that why do we pretend to be so full of love when we're all so full of crap she's makin me act crazy again as if i need a reason to do that every stubborn react, as a matter of fact is coming from me and my lack of tact and disappearances happen every day disappearances happen every day i always feel the ghosting is on the way so hurry hurry and wish me away but that's the oat of life great mystery and all that why do we pretend to be so full of love when we're all so full of crap disappearances happen every day disappearances happen every day so hurry hurry and whisk me away i know you want to wish me away and disappearances happen every day disappearances happen every day so hurry hurry and whisk me away so hurry hurry and wish me away
10.
peaceful tidings a mirror of a message in a bow she says she's always rewinding when she's reminded of all my misplaced hopes well it feels good to be in her head nowadays the pain is so much duller can i return to her yet? no it will never even happen i don't trust myself i always fall in love my feelings never leave me you're still the same person that i love and it never seems to end oh and it never seems to end i don't trust myself i always fall in love my spirit will never leave me you're still the same person that i love
11.
Discotheque 05:04
oh i've tried but regrettably i've failed and i've never been so afraid but there's some power in these words the words you spoke to me still linger in my throat n the N.A.S.A. night i'm missing you and who do i see in the back of the room a different someone in my life the yous exchange i need you in my life and things they do progress though sometimes a harsh process but now i have you and i have your love in my life and it feels so good to hold you in my arms and look into your eyes and laugh the day away and it feels so good to hold you in my arms and look into your laugh and live my life with you with you with you with you only you LOCUST LOCUST LOCUST LOCUSTS with you with you with you only you with you with you with YOU ONLY YOU WITH YOU WITH YOU WITH YOU ONLY YOU WITH YOU WITH YOUUU WITH YOUUUU ONLY YOUUUUUU tryna find my mind is at but i dont fuckin know every wave thats crashin over keeps me in its undertow thrashin never got me nothin so i'm goin with the flow whatever life has got to throw me come on baby throw
12.
13.
like shining knives freshly squeezed like terrorizers bent all the way back to their knees like giving it up like begging please just get me back to where i started spinnin round and round and round in all this endless disease a mobius strip i drink it up infinity becomes me find my eyes lost in the cup can't find what's lost but can always start up anew everything you think i did i didn't just to end up a piece of you yea like shining knives eyes straight head up nauseous fuck it press it hit it foot is yea like shining knives like shining knives eyes straight head up nauseous fuck it press it hit it foot is on the
14.
deep in the mystery deep in the deep in the mystery lies a rotten core like perhaps there's something golden but it's buried like the things you don't want celsius is dropping giving nightmares to the dogspeak every world is burning all the cars are crashing and we are all still up drinking waiting for some display as if we've never feared anything i think i'm stepping out hey relax no need to blow your mind it's not like there is movement time it still tick tick tick ticks on by hurtling endlessly towards death here in the laugh the great laugh of mankind i sprawl out in the bath but it never seems  no it never seems to take here in the laugh the great laugh of mankind i sprawl out in the bath but it never seems  no nothing ever seems to take
15.
Metal Tunnel 02:04
16.
Sun Hurts 01:41
the sun hurts the sun hurts i wake up every morning but the sun hurts my skin blisters it cracks and it bleeds it skiffs and it howls and it hurts so much to breathe give it love give me love watch me grow watch me go more esoteric than you fools know give it up watch it up till it reverse spinning cup and under the whisper seethes i howl in merry and brick by brick laid the point of the slaughter and connected two points thus made a line and so they made fine time tipping it off the other's dime never aware of their unfortunate crime and in that moment i realized i'm just another whine in the wind so so long my friends here's hoping i see you again but if i don't, forget the joke the fix is in, my boys the fix is in
17.
you pull up and over the drive and you pick me up and we go for a ride and we talk about how we're still alive nothing lost nothing gained the same monsters inside ohhhhhhh ohhhhhhh we pass the place where i know you've been and we talk and talk for hours bout sin and on your breath i still smell the gin the toxic tonic of love that we've found ourselves in ohhhhhhh ohhhhhh written in your dirge, bask in regret the world flies by but i'm not dead yet but to point this out would be requiem upset so i keep myself quiet and slowly reset ohhhhhhh ohhhhhh
18.
Young Heart 01:47
maybe we could make it work out or maybe you should just kill me now why would i ever try to get them to fall in love when they always just shoot me down violence to my body  fly down to my parents house sleep in my bed  hit me til i ain't breathin' i won't care if i'm dead i won't care anymore when i'm dead and i'll finally rest this young heart can't take it anymore so just treat me like a ragdoll if you're gonna end up hating me anyway just treat me like a ragdoll baby if it's all the same, ooh
19.
it's so easy to stumble into a broken heart you keep your head down low and forget to start well i don't want to end up with those petty games in my hand dear and i don't know what causes this pain but if you ever feel like comin back round again i'll make things right as just before that moment when i lost my breath little soldiers they spin like clockwork poking spears into your chest as it beats inside the clouds up above look like a pop-up book display bringing us back to yesterday i don't want to end our love but i cannot keep you the sky's overcast so i finally kiss you but i know my anxiety won't ever go away so i lock myself away sayin i will hold you in my arms someday don't get comfy i'll probably kill myself someday so i should probably stay away i don't know what it is but there's something that grips you with sickening pleasure it starts to twist you coating your heart in oil slick and bruises something sinister and out of sorts a mental breakdown i hear my screaming broke so i channel it into one that sings another depression that starts all over again a vicious cycle that tells me i'm doomed inside worlds collide and i crumble quick i'm always sure that this'll be the one where i die but sparks fly and i see the light the sun it comes up and i start to cry i know this feeling won't ever ever go away so i still hope that i'll hold you in my arms someday i'd kill myself just to hold you in my arms someday no matter how fast those skies turn grey i still tell myself every day that i will hold you in my arms someday
20.
she's makin me put on my pants again and go out to check the mail without her guiding love i'm sure that i would fail and i still break down every now and then when i think about things i did every word that was so laced with venom every told-you-so that i did bid but that's the oat of life great mystery and all that why do we pretend to be so full of love when we're all so full of crap she's makin me act crazy again as if i need a reason to do that every stubborn react, as a matter of fact is coming from me and my lack of tact and disappearances happen every day disappearances happen every day i always feel the ghosting is on the way so hurry hurry and wish me away but that's the oat of life great mystery and all that why do we pretend to be so full of love when we're all so full of crap disappearances happen every day disappearances happen every day so hurry hurry and whisk me away i know you want to wish me away and disappearances happen every day disappearances happen every day so hurry hurry and whisk me away so hurry hurry and wish me away

about

hello again! this album has been gestating for a while, with some songs dating back 6+ years. it doesn't really have a coherent theme or idea, and is more a collection of various little nuggets of output. as it seems i always do these days, i think of it mostly as a bridge to the next thing.

for those who bought "locusts" a while back, you'll notice that i removed it in favor of this album which contains all of the tracks from that album as well, essentially creating a "locusts 2", but i also rearranged the tracks to make it one big album instead of two small albums.

that being said, if you wanted to consider this a double album, the 2nd disc would start with "discotheque". but i leave that to you.

as usual, play it loud on some nice speakers for the full experience! or some really good headphones.

i'm not sure what's next, but whatever it is, i'll be jumping right into it... thanks for listening.

[SHx005]

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released May 5, 2023

otto william peyer iv - everything just about
x - piano playing i sampled throughout "the world is a stage"
yeongrak - noises i sampled throughout "psych eggs"

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